Trauma-Induced Theology (Part 1)
Our trauma has deeply informed our understanding of God, as well as the church.
These days I spend a good bit of time thinking about what I might call “trauma-induced theology”. I use this term to speak of how our trauma – both past and current – has deeply informed our understanding of God, as well as the church.
Many have either engaged in or know others who are deconstructing their faith or fully de-converting from the Christian faith. For many, this is primarily due to the spiritual abuse and trauma they have experienced, whether in the church, at home, in another religious institution, or perhaps all of the above.
I understand the journey many are traversing. I walked my own theological deconstruction path some years ago while living in Belgium. I began reading differing viewpoints and particularly those who were not of a more reformed or charismatic ilk, my specific background at that time. And that broad reading has continued up to today. I’ve read mainline Protestants, Catholics, Eastern Orthodox, Arminians, Open Theists, universalists, progressives, and more.
For me, the process of deconstruction actually led to what I might call a more holistic faith. In all, I began to appreciate and embrace a much more mystical side of God and this faith journey we are on. This path was difficult for me to travel as a left-brained, theologically-trained academician. And I can still feel the cognitive dissonance at times as I butt up against confusing and competing ideas. Yet, through it all, I realized I couldn't “control” theology – or really I couldn't control the Divine. That may be the most difficult part as a recovering controloholic. But I've also found it the most liberating path.
I have friends who have left the faith, are hanging on to the faith by a thread, or have hunkered down at home having given up on any expression of the church. I lament the chucking out the baby and the bath water when it comes to certain tenets essential to the Christian path.
But I wouldn’t expect anything less in this day.
Why would I say such?
Because of all the garbage that was practiced by those who’ve gone before us. Exploitation, misogyny, racism, power moves, oppression, mistreatment of the LGBTQ community, as well as sexual, physical, and emotional abuse from leaders. Not all Christians have engaged in this, of course. But, as a whole, the church of America and the West did (and still does). Millennials and Gen Z’s watched their forefathers and foremothers engage in this horrendous expression of "Christianity".
Something has to give at some point, right? There has to be an implosion of some sort. The trauma has surfaced and has now grown to the magnitude of a tidal wave.
Knowing our history, I have compassion for many of these folk who are deconstructing and deconverting.
So, this is what I call trauma-induced theology. And it many times fuels our trauma-induced reactions in life.
We all have trauma-induced theology – you, me, your pastor, my pastor, everyone. Yes, even pastors.
I've been a Christian for twenty-seven years now and I'm still recovering from a deeply faulty image of God. I also know I will never have a perfected view of the Divine, though I still would love to build such. It’s been a long journey of healing. And, some of what I thought was healed years ago, I now look back on it and wonder if it was genuinely healing, especially with what I know today.
I think our first step in healing is awareness. We must be aware that, in some form or fashion, our understanding of God, church, and life has been informed through our trauma. But so many of us have no idea. We just keep pedaling forward as if everything is alright.
But what do we do with this trauma?
That’s a difficult question, one with no easy answer.
Get help, yes. I am grateful for the therapist God put in my life nearly ten years ago that helped me process the trauma in my life. But there can be things we can engage in ourselves.
Perhaps, in a quiet moment here or there, jot down some thoughts as you think about the painful situations you have walked through and how they have shaped and formed you, and your view of God. It isn't a quick fix. It isn't the answer. Though I wish it were. Yet, it can be part of the small steps on the journey toward the wholeness for which we long.
Trauma takes time to heal. I wish it weren’t true.
But we have to be aware of how contorted our perspectives have become due to trauma. And we need to give space – to listen, breathe, journal, and converse with others who can help bring healing to our trauma-induced theology.